Sunday, November 22, 2009

Selfishness

Do you ever just want to scream at someone, "Why can't you ever think of anyone but yourself???"

I was suffering through a terrible mood yesterday. I was rather impatient with my little man. I blamed it on his constant disobedience (which is always made worse by my impatient frustration - it's like my muttering and huffing and puffing egg him on somehow). I blamed it on my 9-month-pregnant-enormous-belly, my uncomfortable hugeness, my sore back and hips, several nights of poor sleep, my LONG list of housework and baby-readying tasks.

And I had some thoughts like the one above. And I realized that what I was really thinking was, "Why can't everyone just think of ME instead of themselves?"

And I realized that, while thinking this, I was thinking, of course, only of myself.

When I focus on myself, and how others SHOULD be serving me or thinking of me, I'm miserable.

But when I focus on others instead of myself, and how to serve and please them, this leads to happiness.

For my whole family.

Because it is SO true that 'when Momma ain't happy, ain't NObody happy'.

Here's to happiness through selflessness. :)

Radical concept, right? You'd think maybe somebody would've written about this thousands of years ago or something...



Whosoever will be chief among you, let him be your servant.
For the first shall be last, and the last first.
-Mt. 20:27 & 20:16.

4 comments:

Rebecca said...

Good stuff, Carrie. I have those days, too. Sometimes I think, "Man, I'm acting just like a 3 year old..."
Hope today is better!

Tiffany said...

Oh, don't we all have those days? Praise God for his grace and mercy!

Kim said...

That is very true. Sometimes I find myself playing the martyr and wonder why I am not getting the attention for being a martyr like I should be. Then I step back and realize just how selfish I am most of the time. It really shocks me how far I can get if I don't make an effort to keep it in check.

H F W said...

Yes!!! Fully agreed -- when I focus on others serving me, I'm miserable. Said so well.